Over . . . Committed? Whelmed? Still a Cluster . . .

I’m doing too much.

Or trying to, anyway.

Some might say, per usual.

I have, overall, high expectations – of myself, of others, and probably the world in general. Most of the time, I can own this. But it’s harder to let go of the ones I place on myself.

Tonight I’m feeling the stress.

I’ve gotten to a place where I have so much to do, I can’t even decide where to begin.

And as it’s too long for a facebook status, I’ve decided that a brain-dump/delayed post/time to organize my thoughts is in order.

Here’s what I want/(need?) to accomplish. Soon. Like tonight and tomorrow:

1.   Make salmon dip for tomorrow’s staff party (just finished – yay!)

2.   Buy more ritz crackers to go along with said salmon dip (must do tomorrow on the way to work)

3.   While we’re talking about the drive to work, we should also put on the list “stop at Starbucks for a peppermint mocha” because this morning I apparently left my just-opened gallon of favorite coffee creamer on the counter. That only is sold at one grocery store in this damn town. That I literally opened this morning and used for one cup of coffee. And left on the counter to go bad. Ugh. Not my best moment of today. Quite sad when I arrived home and noticed it.

4.   Prepare decorations for tomorrow’s holiday party.

5.   Make Triple Chocolate Brownie cookies for tomorrow’s party. [As of sitting down to write this post I’ve cut these off the list. Maybe I can make them for next week. It’s not going to happen tonight.]

6.   Research, make a decision, and perhaps purchase a new car. Goal for this is before I leave for MI to see my family for Christmas. T-minus 10 days here.

7.   Make Holiday cards/notes for staff. I might need to make around 65 of these. I’m coming to terms with using some of the store-bought cards I used for others, and make about half of these.

8.   Write out notes/sign cards for staff.

9.   Download Christmas and Hanukah cd’s into iTunes account so I can make a holiday playlist for tomorrow’s gathering.

10.  Pack up pile of junk (like iPod and player) for tomorrow. Don’t forget the serving knife for the salmon dip!

11.  Make packing list for trip to Columbus this weekend.

12.  Wrap Christmas presents to take to Columbus this weekend. Did I mention that I’m leaving in two days for this?

13.  Email friends in Columbus that I’ll be in town and want to see them during this whirlwind trip. In two days.

14.  Pack for trip.

15.  Eat dinner.

16.  Attempt to convince my sisters to confirm their visit home for Christmas. I know they both want to join my parents and I around the tree, but it might not happen. I’m quite sad about this. And the old(er?)(est?) sister in me wants to make it happen.

17.  Fix chipped nailpolish on nails. Cannot appear in public with these current fingers.

Ugh. I’m sure there are others. Perhaps I need to reconcile with myself that some things just aren’t going to get done. Because surely I should take a few more things off this list other than those damn cookies. But now that the list is on paper (sort-of!), and I’ve re-entered the blogosphere, I need to get back to work. However, I think this was a cathartic and helpful exercise for me. I started my blog this way, makes sense to start back up again with a similar post.